Rebbeca

by far, the only book I understood this entire summer. The emotion, the envy, all for a dead woman. I really did enjoy it. (even though the beginning is slow as heck.) Anyways, I really am looking forward to reading Romeo and Juliet again. Such a classic, I can never get sick of it. Although out of Shakespeare's works my personal favorite is A Midsummer Nights Dream for my obvious reasons. Oberon, King of the fairies, and puck, good ol' puck. my favorite characters.  Shakespeare, by far (in my book) the best literary genius to ever walk among human kind (so far). 

anyways tomorrow, I must go and run a 1.5 mile, or something of that sort, just for P.E. oh how I dread tomorrow. Also, I have a spanish test, but I'm not that worried, I'm actually doing muy bien, besides my random talkings. well goodnight!

After today...

I read the letters that tell me to succeed and I cry. why? I may disappoint them, I don't live up to what they think of me. watching the scene over and over again, she's saying we are special, she's waiting for us to make a difference. what have we done? I see us, barely getting by in life, finding out, one of my friends has already gone off on the wrong foot. drinking, pot, and to think I knew who she was at one point. As people put us on pedestals, we all are scared to fail, but when we do, we give up hope. my teachers, my dear, dear, teachers. who gave me, influence, guidance, friendship, parental figures, and to see them cry because of us, both of sadness and joy, why, It breaks my heart, knowing my fellow classmates and I are that powerful. Watching, as everyday has gone by, knowing it gets harder. 

I can only hope that after today, I rise to the occasion, and make everyone proud.

wow first day of school and I already wish for winter break.

I wasn't lost, or at least, I was never lost alone. I'm happy with all my classes, but really, I just wish I could sleep in. It's how it's always been. But other than that, I'm enjoying it as if I had lived there, I made one new friend today, her name is hannah. I am in other classes with her but I had not talked to her until block f, where we got to interview each other, she enjoys day over night, has one younger brother, favorite color is yellow, and likes sushi. fun girl, way taller than me (but I mean who isnt?) It's a joy to be around all girls. but I think there are a few male teachers there, I only have one, his name I should not say but everybody love him and says he's cute.

Tomorrow is picture day, I'm not sure how I'll take the photo but whatever will happen will happen. 

I can sleep peacefully now that first day of high school is over, but I still haven't broken the ice with some people, I'll let nature let it melt. 

school tomorrow

the beginning of a whole new adventure eh?

really I'm scared beyond belief. someone should come save me, maybe like a knight in shining armour knowing perfectly that i won't be seeing many high school boys in my high school career. oh well, maybe I will be able to find him at disneyland or somewhere where dreams come true.

If I won a date with him.

you know those really cheesy contests they have in magazines like bop, j-14, popstar, tiger beat, and all those other 'tween' magazines that give you a chance to have a date with the current heartthrob, ya those ones. do you ever wonder, 'could I really get a stable relationship out of this contest?' I highly doubt those real possibilities but I guess everyone can dream a little. It's actually kinda fun to enter those contests (not to say I've actually entered one of those contests because I haven't). I mean think about it, filling out a survey which will be hand picked out of thousands, you must be really special to win. 

Let's see, what kind of questions do they ask in these surveys. (I guess since I'm writing down these questions you'll get to know me better and I'll tell you mine.)

favorite school subject: lunch (hey I hope this guy likes a girl with a sense of humor)no I'm just kidding, it's really literature or english 

favorite singer/group:(if it's a musician a girl is trying to win a date with, most girls would just name that person.)  Josh Verdes from myspace.

favorite movie: (if a girl is really obssessed over the 'dreamboat' she'd know what his favorite movie is and state it)  it'd have to be science of sleep.

favorite tv show: (considering the person filling out the survey is probably around the age 10-14, they still watch Disney Channel so they'd probably state something like Hannah Montana or maybe if they're more of the nickelodeon person they'd say something like zoey 101 or drake and josh) personally, I watch anime´s so my favorite show is Ouran High School Host Club (which technically I don't watch on television because they only air it in japan but essentially it's on a tv)

favorite book: mine's just happens to be whatever I'm reading. but two that stick in my mind because they're just phenomenal is Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger, and Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk.

hmm what else do they ask?

describe yourself in five words: affable, eloquent, illogical, contradictory, dictionary 

describe your date with (the person you're trying to win a date with) in one sentence:(what a tough one) Lets just say, dinner at a local dinning area (without getting too expensive, personally for me a place like Rocky Cola Cafe), movies, a hug (and maybe a little smooch) and the simple statement that will never be fulfilled, we should do this again sometime.

I think those cover the main basics. now really how is a heart throb suppose to choose from thousands of applicants that seem to be all the same.