Wednesday, February 2, 2011

It's Been awhile.

As much as I'd like to tell you I've been on the most amazing journey of my young adult life, or at least one comparable to eat pray love, I'd be lying.
For the past few months I've been doing pretty much what any young person has to do, go to school, learn, just go through the motions.
It's been difficult just being around friends, every ten seconds I heard his name, and only till now am I okay and moving on. (took me long enough)
But whatever happened to the stranger? I kicked him to the curb and out of my life, and good rid-dens. He was too clingy, and too.... not my type. If i even have a type.
So I've been smooth sailing for the past few weeks, months, and guess what?
I've convinced myself that babyface has feelings for me (other than friendship). and as much as I want to say he's only a friend, I seriously am doubting this right now.
For the past few weeks I've seen him on weekends, mostly movie nights with large groups of friends, and usually we give each other (at most) hugs, greetings and goodbyes. But everything was different last weekend.
I guess I should first off mention that my ex was there (but he was irrelevant to everything because we ignored each other the entire night). Anyways, so it was a movie night and dinner (we went out for teriyaki) during dinner I pop out a film I had (science of sleep if you were wondering) and he just gets this look on his face of pure happiness. We didn't end up watching the movie, or any movie at all. well just a small group of us at least didn't watch any movie (we were rather content without watching the departed). So he decides to sit next to me for the entire night (usually he's across the entire room), at the end of the night says, "goodnight my tumblr crush." As ridiculous as it sounds it was cute. but it just confused the hell out of me because he usually only refers to me as my name, and I don't know why he would even bring up tumblr crushes in the first place because we don't talk very much about our tumblrs at all, let alone talk to each other very much.
this brings me to the next day. where we went to the same party. (I didn't actually expect him to be there, but slightly hoping he was) (oh yeah ex was there too). When I got to my friend's house I saw him get out of his truck, needless to say I was excited and nervous for no reason what so ever. First thing he says to me " Hey, you look good." what guy acknowledges your good lookingness if he's not interested? (this may all be in my head because I swear I don't know what goes on in a boy's mind) We went to a music museum, not a big deal. But the fact that he was around me the entire night kind of confused me, because he had his guy friends to hang around but instead chose me (even though I was hanging with my girl friends for the majority of the night so he kind of just tagged along which I felt bad about because I bet he would have more fun hanging out with his friends.) So that kind of sums up that weekend.
He's been talking to me more than I've ever talked to him in the past I don't know how many months, so (this all may be in my crazy mind) but I think he may have a thing for me. oh last note I randomly put on tumblr, Be my Valentine? just as an objective thing to tumblr (because I'm convinced that I'm going to spend valentines day on tumblr) and he actually responded saying something along the lines of ... tempting. yeah... I'm going insane over this boy.

But it's not like I'm going to let him past me by.
this weekend we're going bowling. (maybe I should make a move?)