I'm brought to tears of joy and sorrow

It wasn't until this year that I "discovered" God. I went to recongress 09 and there was a skit. it's called the everything skit. It brought me to tears knowing that he'll be there no matter how much we stray away from him. I learned that he doesn't need me but wants me to follow him. and I do have faith in him, no matter how many mysteries in my life will come because of it.

The 8 year crush.

I've probably loved this boy since the second grade. he's probably my best guy friend, I've told him things he probably doesn't remember.
I want friday to change our current relationship. I've always wanted to be with him. It's definitely more than infatuation because I know his faults and he knows mine.
He makes my heart beat ten times faster and it always takes me forever to build up the courage for me to ask him something like this. Even the thought of him makes my heart aflutter.
I'll admit, I've had numerous of dreams with him in it. the most recent one was us spending july 4th together. He was holding my hand and taking me across the world one step at a time.
The longer I've known him the harder it is to look him in the eye, because I'm scared he'll see something he won't like.
and as many times as I've been rejected I'm the most scared for his. and I hope it'll never happen.